Currently Listening A Sun That Never Sets By Neurosis Falling Unknown see related

Life is so strange.

I have trip to great state of Pennsylvania planed in december. My grandmother that some of you may know from South Bend is slipping further and further away. Seems i should also have another South Bend trip in store as well to speak with an old friend who always meant the world to me.  He carried me through the worst times in my life, through my mother's drug addiction, through some of worst depressions. A man who couldn't even hold himself up kept me above tides that were trying to drown me.

For a little look back. I listened to an old favorite CD of mine.  And it reminded why so many of my user names are Falling Unknown.

Neurosis - Falling Unknown

With the wind at your back and the light in your eyes,
the freeze of your blindness will show.

Under the cloud cover, the flares signal change.
Will you ever know?

The fields they are burning, the smoke chokes your breath.
Will you stand or run?

You dream of a mountain, the peaks rise to the sky.
Will you answer its call?

Is your heart still beating? Can you feel this at all?
This landslide will bury us all.

With the storm on your mind and the clouds in your eyes,
will you survive?

Lie in wait, I will lie awake.
Falling through a world unknown.

I love that song. One of the best ever.

<edit> On a side note I will not here any hate speak against Neurosis. Their music is a very acquired taste and if you don't have it. I don't want to hear about it.

Good times in South Bend this weekend.

Got to see what turned out to be good football game between NC and ND which should have been one sided. Best of all it was a free trip to hang with crew for a few nights. Had a good time, made some people happy, and some mad. 

I have shaved my head once again and it still seems to shock people.

I think I got Geoff's hopes up because he thought Joel was seeking some one to work under him. This was quickly shot down.  I am not married to any area right now if i can find work in as a piercer I will move any where.

I can't seem to find any thing other than weak maybe from Iowa.  I feel like I am not trying hard enough.  I go to this shop which I wont mention by name due to the fact that i am going to say bad things about one of their workers. I went in and got cozy talking with the piercer they were great with lots of experience.  Even an active in the various conventions.  This person informed me that they had just hired some one when I "popped the question".  I then figure out who it is and I since started my own under cover test.  I have found out he knows nothing he just sits there and fills out paper work. I asked him about aftercare tips and he had nothing.  I know it is one thing to be offered the job which it seems he was. And then some one like me who studies, researches, explores, and dreams to be piercer.  I have been every where with in an hour and 30 minutes of here with no luck. 

Well I thought moving here so I could remove myself from the full time life would make the search process smoother and it has. Seems like I am going to have to take more drastic steps.

People bug me

http://adbusters.org/home/

Random internet browsing has brought me to this page.  I get a little chuckle from all the spoof ads.  Then I dig a little deeper read some articles from the their magazine. Some of them are great but most are just the mindless drone of them against the establishment.  Society seems to work like a bunch of fly traps what ever doesn't get caught in one will just end up in the next one. None of them are any better than the next since at their core they all seek to trap the fly. 

I want to give an example from my time at the insurance company. I used to sit in the loft which was the fancy name for the third floor. And I sat by lots of fun people that made the day great.  There was one person I just hated to even hear them speak. They would ramble on and on about health food this toxins in meat that,  Natural blah.  This person felt that feeding her children beef would some how kill them due to steroids, hormones, antibiotics, and every thing else a dairy farmer would pump into a cow. She blamed teen age pregnancy on this since all the kids were hopped on beef it made them fuck like rabbits.  She failed to mention that most parents wont even speak to their children about sex due to this hyper conservative society where nearly every thing is taboo and should swept under the rug.

I just feel that today every one is fighting for a cause and there is nothing wrong with that.  But the majority are just being force feed their ammo from some source that really just wants them to make their point seem more valid because more people feel that way.  It just goes with the argument that the mob decides what is right and what is wrong.

I see these things like adbusters or listen to some one talk like this. And I know they are no better than every thing they speak out against. Most people today just jam their heads to far up their own ass.

Well the cat come out of the bag to all the internets.  I will be in South Bend late friday. I will be coming to watch some ND football. 

Must also mention that I love FLCL and think its some higher power's gift to mankind.

I have become disenchanted with World of Warcraft like I always do. Too busy running around or playing my Sexbox 360. Splinter Cell multiplayer on live will be hard to get me away from.

No new piercing I had to put stretching my lip on hold till I can get some better jewelry for the healing process. My septum is just about ready to begin its journey to bigger and better things. My ears are almost 3/4 in and i must do a shameless plug for my Dark Dogwood plugs they are awesome and I don't get wacky ear cheese smells any more.  I have my apadravya in the works.

On a more personal note my Prince albert met its tragic demise thanks to me being in a hurry.  I snagged it on my underoos and gave a little tear which was not the bad part in healing this tear it developed a keloid and had to be removed. I miss it i don't feel complete with out it.  On the lighter side it feel great to be able to stand and pee.